Unbreakable

Often, when someone is raised in a dysfunctional household, plagued by abuse and trauma, part of them remains frozen in time, forever that small, frightened child unable to fully cope not only with their past, but their present and future, as well. They unknowingly continue that cycle because it is all they have ever known. Childhood recollections are often recorded in stark black and white, good and bad, very rarely venturing into the truthful shades of gray. One of the hardest steps in the healing process is to restructure long-held thoughts and beliefs, to reconsider the events, traumas and abuses through rational, impartial adult eyes. A year ago, I began my journey toward mental wellness by writing my first book, Unlovable. As I shared all I had been through in my life, it became glaringly obvious how dysfunctional many of my behaviors and choices have been. I knew that in order to heal and move forward in my life, I would have to change. In Unbreakable, I continue my journey towards healing and mental wellness. I strive to step outside the dark memories of my childhood and reconsider the unhealthy paths I have been walking. No one can reasonably expect to repeat the same actions and get different results. In order to change my course, I must change my behaviors. If I am to live healthier, I must make healthier choices. I have lived the majority of my life feeling broken and shattered beyond repair. However, I refuse to be broken any longer. By reevaluating my views on my past and restructuring my present, I hope to break the chains of dysfunction and reforge them into something stronger. I strive to gather up my broken pieces and use them to create a beautiful mosaic. I will never be the person I once was, but I refuse to be broken any longer. I am Unbreakable.