Ellen Larson Hanish

This is Patient Zero Ellen Larson Hanish

'Before Years and After Yesterday' could have been the title of this book. As retold by her husband, 'That is what Ellen stated as she discussed her memory battling fibromyalgia and fibrofog. Recently, she was watching a film on television, 'Bridge Of Spies'. She loved it. I reminded her that she had seen it before. She said, 'Not in a theatre'. I said that she had. I began collecting movie tickets that we had gathered after seeing a movie to have a record of her viewing it with me in a theatre. She said, 'Show me!'. I responded, 'Why? What will it prove?'. She began to well up. I leaned over and told her she had a wonderful memory. Then she said, 'I have a memory selective before years and after yesterday.' But in Elle's words, 'Yesterday when I woke up, I was extremely tired. This is a pattern that I have lived with for as long as I can remember. Not only was it the tiredness, it was also the pain I have lived with which is my constant companion. Welcome to Firbromyalgia. And as usual, I did not want to get out of bed. I ached all over, which is not unusual. I was in real pain. I had an MRI two weeks ago that showed my spinal Stenosis had reached severe. Surgery is now needed or I could become paralyzed if I had an accident by falling down. Pain, fatigue and now another surgery. This is today. And this is my story.